tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18716471711303409042011-10-17T21:53:29.956+08:00ahh small girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17446937689234136688noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1871647171130340904.post-70985209799550707002010-03-03T23:18:00.009+08:002010-03-04T00:36:25.377+08:00<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Well... been reading some of my friends' blog and is all Canada they are still talking about. Especially the Winter Olympic 2010. I was made known that winter is ending in 2 weeks time. There goes the spring! Winter will always turns to spring... and is beautiful. I on another side... never gets to experience that now and not anymore. You know, it was just like yesterday i came back... it was still winter and now is ending? Hey man, where is the snow??</div><div><br /></div><div>I am wondering if i've made my wrong choice coming back. Maybe... i made a mistake. And what if i am still there, will i be still surviving? or already starving to death? or still traveling and enjoying while learning new words of harassment each day? My family needs me that is all i can say. Undeniably, some things are still haunting me... i am struggling badly never in my life. Most times now, i just wish my life ends at this moment and that's it - i'm gone forever. </div><div><br /></div><div>A coward i am. I have to admit i'm a big time loser. Well, i thought i was strong enough to rise... but in real fact i am so not one tough and happy girl. Is really pointless for me to go on and on about the past as i can't undo and redo. feeling pathetic and self pity and self regret are so not going to make things better. </div><div><br /></div><div>Human beings are all same kind when it comes to emotion. When i was in Canada, i missed the crazy life here... but in honest truth, even so craving to come back was not in the mind not until my last challenge :) and right now when i'm back i am kind of missing the freedom i had there. Every day was like an adventure, always something new for me. So exciting... so thrilling. I remember how i walked in snow and in cold rainy wet day. Winter was depressing to me... i never like it cuz it adds on to my state of mind at that point of time. Given the second time, it will surely be a better, enjoyable and smarter experience. </div><div><br /></div><div>It all happened just because of myself. I am the cause of everything. My mistakes. The Mystic Law. The Lotus Sutra. . . is so true. </div><div><br /></div><div>Goodbye the casinos, Goodbye the nice beautiful sceneries, Goodbye Canada for now... i'm zapping back to reality!! </div><div><br /></div>Anyway, Vancouver has now turned from a once very quiet and not lively city to a happening, lively and crazy city! THEY SAID VANCOUVER HAS GONE OLYMPIC CRAZY!!!! is it true? let's take a look at some pictures i hijacked from my friend's blog..truly her copyright! <div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OHDWPsM2jJw/S46LaW0KdWI/AAAAAAAAAbs/Bn53VP_nSMc/s1600-h/p3011319.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OHDWPsM2jJw/S46LaW0KdWI/AAAAAAAAAbs/Bn53VP_nSMc/s400/p3011319.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5444442284454737250" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_OHDWPsM2jJw/S46LEh5b4NI/AAAAAAAAAbk/OZiW3XP5Q6g/s1600-h/p3011307.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_OHDWPsM2jJw/S46LEh5b4NI/AAAAAAAAAbk/OZiW3XP5Q6g/s400/p3011307.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5444441909472518354" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OHDWPsM2jJw/S46K60PRjMI/AAAAAAAAAbc/V5bnzFtQreE/s1600-h/p3011273.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OHDWPsM2jJw/S46K60PRjMI/AAAAAAAAAbc/V5bnzFtQreE/s400/p3011273.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5444441742597262530" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_OHDWPsM2jJw/S46KiQG1mjI/AAAAAAAAAbU/NBcFC0MHSvY/s1600-h/p3011238.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_OHDWPsM2jJw/S46KiQG1mjI/AAAAAAAAAbU/NBcFC0MHSvY/s400/p3011238.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5444441320581339698" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_OHDWPsM2jJw/S46KabYdtYI/AAAAAAAAAbM/9GKZVComZMQ/s1600-h/p3011110.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_OHDWPsM2jJw/S46KabYdtYI/AAAAAAAAAbM/9GKZVComZMQ/s400/p3011110.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5444441186169107842" /></a><br /><div><div>........ now you know why, it makes me missing it? All because the other side of the grass is always greener. So patriotic. And now i understand why most overseas graduates are not coming back at least for good. "You know, i know"... :)</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>*photos are not my copyright</div></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1871647171130340904-7098520979955070700?l=ahh-smallgirl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ahh small girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17446937689234136688noreply@blogger.com0