Goodbye Canada for now...

Well... been reading some of my friends' blog and is all Canada they are still talking about. Especially the Winter Olympic 2010. I was made known that winter is ending in 2 weeks time. There goes the spring! Winter will always turns to spring... and is beautiful. I on another side... never gets to experience that now and not anymore. You know, it was just like yesterday i came back... it was still winter and now is ending? Hey man, where is the snow??

I am wondering if i've made my wrong choice coming back. Maybe... i made a mistake. And what if i am still there, will i be still surviving? or already starving to death? or still traveling and enjoying while learning new words of harassment each day? My family needs me that is all i can say. Undeniably, some things are still haunting me... i am struggling badly never in my life. Most times now, i just wish my life ends at this moment and that's it - i'm gone forever.

A coward i am. I have to admit i'm a big time loser. Well, i thought i was strong enough to rise... but in real fact i am so not one tough and happy girl. Is really pointless for me to go on and on about the past as i can't undo and redo. feeling pathetic and self pity and self regret are so not going to make things better.

Human beings are all same kind when it comes to emotion. When i was in Canada, i missed the crazy life here... but in honest truth, even so craving to come back was not in the mind not until my last challenge :) and right now when i'm back i am kind of missing the freedom i had there. Every day was like an adventure, always something new for me. So exciting... so thrilling. I remember how i walked in snow and in cold rainy wet day. Winter was depressing to me... i never like it cuz it adds on to my state of mind at that point of time. Given the second time, it will surely be a better, enjoyable and smarter experience.

It all happened just because of myself. I am the cause of everything. My mistakes. The Mystic Law. The Lotus Sutra. . . is so true.

Goodbye the casinos, Goodbye the nice beautiful sceneries, Goodbye Canada for now... i'm zapping back to reality!!

Anyway, Vancouver has now turned from a once very quiet and not lively city to a happening, lively and crazy city! THEY SAID VANCOUVER HAS GONE OLYMPIC CRAZY!!!! is it true? let's take a look at some pictures i hijacked from my friend's blog..truly her copyright!

........ now you know why, it makes me missing it? All because the other side of the grass is always greener. So patriotic. And now i understand why most overseas graduates are not coming back at least for good. "You know, i know"... :)

*photos are not my copyright